I recently had a colonoscopy. Today I found out that the polyp that the doctor removed during the procedure was pre-cancerous. I'm in shock right now. The "C" word is like a swear word to me. So many people have to suffer through that disease and it's just not right.
I have very mixed emotions right now. I am very thankful that the doctor caught it early. I think I'm a bit whimpy to handle chemotherapy, to be honest. On the other hand, I am still scared. I am a worrier as it is. Waiting 5 years to see if there is anything going on is going to be rough. I guess I have no choice but to put it in God's loving hands. Just letting things be is hard for me. I have some control issues that have been rearing their ugly heads pretty bad lately. So many Christians say, "Let Go and Let God." I love that phrase, but relating it to my life is a challenging thing to do.
Sorry that I haven't written in awhile. Life has been a bit crazy in our household lately. The latest thing that has taken up a lot of my time is our daughter having pneumonia. That was another thing that I was having a hard time not obsessing over. Seeing her in such a vulnerable state, laying in the ER bed with an oxygen mask strapped to her face...that was not an easy time for me. And it certainly wasn't easy for her either. Poor baby. She was so miserable and so scared.
Well, hopefully my next post will be much sooner! Love to all...
